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i hate:
- how i go on aim, expecting you to talk to me as always.
- the awkwardness we have whenever we're close to each other.
- expecting a hi from you instead of a glare.
- those words i said to you, i regret. truly. i`m such a horrible person.
- how i didn't treat you like the good friend you were.
- how i purposely ignoring your clues. i`m not that moronic you know.
- getting jealous whenever i see you talking to some girl.
- how my heart beating insanely faster whenever you're near.
- how my face freakishly heating up whenever i see you.
- looking for you when you're not in my sight.
- the nicknames you gave me.
- your bad temper.
- your jealousy (you couldn't stand me talking about hot guys).
- your bitchiness.
- your lies...
- your bipolarness.
- remembering the memories we shared.
- remembering the promises we made.
- being friends with your friends.
- playing with your feelings. leading you on.
- being too obsessive over little matters.
- complaining and whining too much.
- still caring about you.
- checking your twitter and facebook to see how you're doing.
- being downright annoying.
- pushing you away when you only tried to help.
- acting like an ignorant blonde around you.
- being blinded by infatuation and lust over another guy.
- the fact that you're always right when i`m wrong.
- how i purposely made you jealous (it worked too well).
- how i unconsciously spilled everything to you.
- having urges to hug you.
- how i don't have a ranting buddy anymore!
- knowing that i can never talk to you anymore...
- thinking about you constantly...
- that we're not friends anymore.
- that you're actually keeping your promise of leaving me alone.
- that we're giving each other the silent treatment....
- the fact that you forgot me within a few weeks.
- your smiles and laughter. they disturb me. A LOT.
- how you have moved on while i`m stuck in the past.
- that i still hope for the day when we can patch things up again.
- my pride, stubbornness, foolishness and arrogance. i hate yours too.
- realizing that saying "sorry" can't always fix everything.

maybe it's better to not remember the past.
to not find a way back into love.