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i think it's funny how life works nowadays. when you`re introduced to a new lifestyle, you start hating it due your strange, awkward new surroundings that you have to adapt to, but then, after a while, you get use to its weird (but interestingly fun!) ways and you happily start loving it and enjoying it to the fullest, but then you suddenly leave with a million goodbye and tears.... just when you start appreciating it more...

the truth is that... i miss vietnam. ): dearly. even though i kept saying to my friends on aim that i was homesick & that i miss my home in cali over a million times in counting because of the clean, sanitary places, safe streets that have stoplights and crosswalks, my families (street family included!) & my friends. at first, i developed a sense of hatred for vietnam because of the hot, humid, & rainy weather 24/7, icky lizards, sly cockroaches, dirtiness, hyperactive killer dogs, claustrophobic places, the dangerous streets and even (drunken) drivers that would literally run you over if they had to... now, being back home, i`m looking back on the past two weeks & i`m finally appreciating vietnam for what it really is. motorcycles. cold smoothies with no boba. every house being more than 5 stories high. going out to the markets & buying breakfast. glass bottles of soda. hyper (insane) children. iced coffee. delicious ice cream. cheap inexpensive stuff. wake-up calls from my smiling, always happy aunt. nice cafes & restaurants. DELICIOUS FOOD. beautiful parks. taxis. cheap photostickers. friendly neighbors that would wash and curl your hair for you for about 3 bucks. nieces. nephews. aunts. uncles. my lovable cousins.... the simplicity of life over there & independence you get... don't get me wrong. i AM happy that i`m back home. [: (aside from the fact that i`ll be back in school in about a week and a half. ._.) but i just wished that time could have just slowed down for a bit & let me enjoy and elaborate memorable memories in vietnam with the people that i won't see again for another 3-5 years.... (i`m talking about my family there!) all i have now to remember vietnam by are... a few bug bites... and the things i bought there for keepsakes.... BUT it's okay. i`ll see them again.... IN THREE YEARS....!

you don't know what you have until it's gone.