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s w e e t e s t victory.

update update!
20 chapters down ; 10 chapters left.
1-pager essay to write.
can i do it?! :)
yes, i shall prevail with an iron fist!

because of my summer reading assignment from mirsch (nectar in a sieve by kamala markandaya), i`m starting to look at life in a different perspective - positively & negatively. the positives? looking back on the past memories (the good and the bad), i realized that my life have been pretty fascinating and wonderful up to this point. (well, compared to the starving and dying children in africa and india, my life is amazingly spectacular.) i`m thankful for what i have - good friends, a supporting family, a roof to live under, delicious meals everyday, electronic appliances, & clothes to wear. i`ll try to stop my habits of moping and mourning about my "unfortunate" and "fucked-up" life and be more jubilant and optimistic from now on! always looking forward for a cloudy, cold day. (i hate sunny, hot days!) [: the negatives? i`ve become more aware of the issues of starvation in other countries. here i am, everyday at home, depressed about the "fucked-up" things of my love life and how bad my life is (to the point where i want to suicide) while millions of other people in the world are facing death right in the eye - every single second as we speak. i should be thankful for having a homemade meal everyday in front of me (3-5 times a day!) and savior the food as it long as it lasts instead of starving myself every now and then to gain the "perfect body figure." be thankful we`re not living in africa and india - dying of starvation and life-threatening diseases we can never escape from. amen (can i say amen even though i`m buddhist? haha! :D) and best wishes to the people who are living in torment everyday.....

ah fck... where am i going with this?